My Current NY State of Mind

When I first moved to NY things were tough. During my first week I saw a women stabbed….in broad daylight on a crowded street. I missed my friends and family. I often wondered if I made the right decision on moving out east. That first year I felt really lost. My only escape was poetry and journals. I found that if I wrote I felt better. Unfortunately, I also found out that I could only write when I was sad or down. I would try to write when I was in a bubbly mood but nothing really came out. During those times I just wanted to sing and dance. Well today I am having one of those sad, lost, down days so I decided to break out the pen and see what might come out. Be warned I am not saying I am good at poetry/writing just that it makes me feel better. There is a hole I just can’t fill today I don’t think a kiss, or hug, or I love you is enough Somedays I just need to start over In order to heal the pain In order to feel again No really I’m alright I just miss my peace of mind I miss feeling whole I miss knowing that everything Is going to be alright No really I’ll be just fine.